What Gal 2:20 Means to Me
Because I had been such a failure as a Christian, I had no will power, so the good I wanted to do I could not, and the evil I didnít want to do I did. I was so scared of me, I didnít trust me, I didnít like me, I was this awful thing that I was so ashamed of, because my beloved Jesus that had suffered and gone to hell and been made sin, and took my place on the Cross, and took on all my sinís, and I couldnít even be good, even after I had accepted Him as my beloved Saviour and been filled with the Holy Spirit, speaking in tongueís, and had power to witness to otherís about him. How could I let Him down so badly? Romans 7 was my existence, it was hell.
The more I cried out to Him to help me to be good, the worse I got. Then God brought Dear Norman Grubb into my life, and he told me I was Dead, that I had been in Christ when he died on the Cross, he pointed me to Gal 2:20. I read it and wanted to believe it, but it didnít make sense in my brain. I knew it must be true, because God canít lie, but I needed to experience it for myself. I believe because we are unique forms of Him, He shows us in different ways. He meets us at our point of understanding; this is how He showed me.
I remember one morning I woke up and I felt I was gone. The Amy I hated was no longer around. I felt like I had died and gone to Heaven, it was wonderful, I had no more temptations, I had no more bad feelings, I was walking on air, and nothing could touch me! I thought this is what Gal 2:20 means. Wow, that went on for nine months. Then I woke up one morning and I was back! I was shaking because I was so scared and disappointed; this awful thing was back, how could I go on. Then God showed me that yes I was back, but I was the Resurrected Amy, the brand new creature that was mixed with Him, and was now Amy Christ. I knew that the new Amy was as Christ is. So it was on three levels that God revealed to me Gal 2:20.
[I HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED WITH CHRIST (IN HIM) I HAVE SHARED HIS CRUCIFIXION]
OLD SELF DEAD.
[IT IS NO LONGER I WHO LIVE, BUT CHRIST, THE MESSIAH, LIVES IN ME ]
NO SELF JUST CHRIST.
[AND THE LIFE I NOW LIVE IN THE BODY I LIVE BY FAITH]
TO NEW SELF AMY CHRIST.