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Past-Present-Future
by Amy Dagnell

When I became a Christian, all I knew was that I had my sins forgiven and I was going to Heaven. I didn’t have a clue how to live this new life. So what was real to me was my feelings, my reasoning and appearance’s. That was the problem. I read in the Scriptures that I had an abundant life, but my life was anything but that.
I was always either living in the past –why did I say that or why did I do that or I wish I hadn’t. I was full of regrets. If I wasn’t doing that I was living in fear of the future – supposing this happens or that happens, suppose I can’t do this or that. I spent my whole time in the past or future. Where was this abundant life God promised me? .
I was always on my knees crying to God, because I was so desperate. Then God said to me “Amy, why are you trespassing?”. I asked Him “where was I trespassing?” and He said to me “you keep trespassing into the past or future. You have no right going there. I only live in the present, so you can’t live anywhere else, because you are in Me and I live in you now.”

So I asked Him to show me in the Scriptures what He had told me. Then I saw – Phil 3:13. “I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own. (yet) but one thing I do – it is my one aspiration: forgetting what lies behind and starring forward to what lies ahead.” So that took care of the past for me. Then I saw 2 Cor 6:2 “Behold now is truly the time for a gracious welcome and acceptance (of you from God) behold, now is the day of Salvation.” That was my glorious present. Then I saw Matt 6:34 “So do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties if it’s own.” That took care of the future.

When our Daughter was little she had a bike with wheels each side of the back
wheel, they were stabilisers, they kept her upright, so she didn’t fall off. She used them until she was confident and could ride without them.

Well, those Scriptures were my stabilisers. Every time I was tempted to trespass into the past or future with all these thoughts, I used my stabilisers. I used to say out loud Phil 3:13 – 2 Cor 6:2 – Matt 6:34. That went on until I had learnt to stay in the present moment – now. That was peace. So I no longer needed my Stabilisers.

I still get pulled to trespass into the past or future but now I recognise that it’s only temptation. I do what dear Norman Grubb used to say “Quick down, Quick up.”