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Terrible Two's
by Fred Pruitt

Here's a couple of thoughts ....

i keep harping on "the plan" but i'm seeing now how "the plan" is so vitally important, because it helps us know who we are now, and where we are going ....

Maybe this choice of words will help -- maybe not -- but I've thought a great way to describe union/incarnation etc., is "Man does not become God, but God becomes Man" .... in other words, our "destiny" is not to merge with & become the "GODHEAD", but to become fully HUMAN (the divine in the human) eternally -- just as a tree expresses God's TOTAL GLORY simply by being what it is, which is God expressing Himself as a tree, even so we, in living out our "human" life fully without reservation in Him, is God expresssing Himself as me (Him [but you don't see Him] but you see ME!) ....

i was thinking about that, and it hit me that "pantheism," a charge we are often hit with, involves a merging "back" into the "ONE," i.e. the "GODHEAD" .... all distinctions are lost .... at least so it seems to me ....

"distinctions" are DANGEROUS business .... at least, when "will" is involved (doesn't matter much for trees, but does for humans) .... for a "creature" (created individual self) to be given "free will," that is, an "individual" will which is completely free, involves risk of eternal ramifications .... grave risk .... because, if the will is to be "distinct," then it must also be completely free to choose its way, else it's a sham .... freedom does not exist if the will is not free ....

one of the singer Sting's songs says: "If you love somebody, set them free" ....

that's what God has done .... He has chosen to set us completely FREE because in Love that is the only way we can be persons .... then, rather than force our submission by brute violence, He chooses to woo us by His love and by the consequences of our expressed Freedom, to continually draw us into the center of Himself ....

but what, paradoxically, is the result of complete submission to God??? .... amazingly -- our complete unrestricted Freedom!!!! ....

i can't stress this enough, i know i say it over and over, but God's plan is to populate the universe with sons who express the Life of the Father/Son/Spirit by BEING THEMSELVES ....

that is the pinacle of God's plan as far as it has been revealed to us ....

just like we are so proud of our children when they have accomplished something on their own, without daddy's & mama's help ....

even more so our Father in heaven .... to be a "father" in Christ is to stand on our own two feet and do what WE want to do ....

look at Samuel's charge to Saul before he anointed him king:

"And the spirit of the LORD will come upon thee, and thou shalt prophesy with them, and shalt be turned into another man.
And let it be, when these signs are come unto thee, that thou do as occasion serve thee; for God is with thee." (1 Sam 10:6,7)

Samuel told Saul that once the Spirit of the Lord was upon him, to "do as occasion served him," in other words, "do what you want to do" .... "do what seems best to you" ....

implicit in that word, of course, was that Saul continue to act in the Spirit of the Lord, because later on in the story we know he reacted out of unbelief and Saul ended up not working out as king ....

but the prototype always seems to be the failure -- the negative that points to the positive .... Adam/Christ -- Saul/David ....

despite the fact that Saul didn't work out, nevertheless the word to Saul is true .... life "in the Spirit" is to act according to our own desires and wills, in freedom and faith which works by love ....

Saul's fall (as well as Adam's) shows both the "danger" implicit in being given "freedom" and the fine line between "self-will" and "Self-will" .... here is the "narrow road" and the "straight gate" ....

we are MEANT to be "ME-expressors" .... look at 2-yr olds -- the "terrible twos" .... if there ever was a "me" expressor, it's a 2 yr old saying "NO" .... on the one hand we can say, "well, there's the devil being rebellious in that little child" -- OR -- we can say "there is God bringing about right consciousness through the NECESSARY realization of our individual selfhood, whch can only come about through the confrontation of opposing wills" ....

whatever the devil's part, GOD has ORDAINED terrible two's!!!! .... they are precious in His sight!!!! ....

for it is through this apparent conflict between "opposing wills" that two things are accomplished .... first, we realize, rightly, that we are separate, distinct individuals, with our own lives and desires to express ourselves .... (that involves the very very very dangerous "game" of living in "separation" as if it is real, because we MUST KNOW our distinction from all others, including God [but do we see the "danger" implicit here, because to fool around with "separation" means we might never let it go] ) .... and secondly, through that conflict of "opposing wills" we learn the One Will which operates All and willingly join in with it as our own expressed will ....

like Artur Rubenstein or Vladimir Horowitz .... when Rubenstein played Chopin or Horowitz played Beethoven, who were they being -- Chopin & Beethoven, or Rubenstein & Horowitz .... or both??? .... it was Chopin expressed as Artur Rubenstein and Ludwig Van expressed as Vladimir Horowitz .... Chopin and Beethoven alive and vibrant and new and individual and distinct in the fingers of masters .... Rubenstein & Horowitz were lauded the world over not because they could play the composers' notes better than anyone else, but because when they played in their freedom on the stage, Chopin BECAME Rubenstein, and Beethoven BECAME Horowitz .... they WERE the music when they were most THEMSELVES .... they didn't write the music, but they played the ever-livin' HELL out of it!!!! ....

what does the whole creation groan for???

the MANIFESTATION of the sons of God!!!! .... sons, who KNOW who they are (He as them), and who through prodigalness and trial & error have come to know NO CONTRARY WILL in themselves, who through suffering and hardship and perserverance have "come to themselves" even while feeding off the crumbs which the swine left, and are now ready to "trust themselves" and "do as occasion serves them" ....

when i was a kid, i used to wish there was a "smart-pill" that you could take, that would make you know everything, and then you could skip school ....

now, though, i'm glad for the experience i've got under my belt .... no "smart-pill" could produce that .... this current "trial of our faith" is producing nothing but gold, pure gold, precious in His sight, and in ours as well ....

so what is our commission for today??? .... to stand up and "do as occasion serves thee, for God is with thee" ....

get to it ....