A Beautiful Mind
Paul said, "But we speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, even the hidden wisdom, which God ordained before the world unto our glory" (1 Cor 2:7).
No matter what comes my way, be it a question, or circumstance, thoughts about this or that, adversity, joy, pleasure, pain - no matter what, everything goes back to this: everything is One Person manifesting Himself. (And HE is before all things, and by Him all things consist.)
Recently I was taking in the night air and the crowd was buzzing in my head. These are all the voices who attempt to have say-so, or assert themselves and their opinions about what is going on, or what should be done, or what hasn't been done, along with a million other things they have on their minds. They're the crowd I regularly take with me wherever I go, so it was nothing new hearing their buzz in the background, as some other part of me was enjoying the relaxed pleasure of the evening.
Suddenly everything changed in an instant. It struck me for just a moment, and by that I just mean something seemed to open up for a momentary glimpse, and I immediately knew that every voice in the crowd was only one Voice speaking.
It all came crashing in. "In the Beginning was the Word" - eternally the Father has only spoken One Word, the Son, of Whom, by Whom, and in Whom, all is, and of .... by Him all things consist -- without Him was not anything made that was made." Therefore only One Voice has gone forth, speaking One Word, which is Christ -- out of that One Word all things exist and are continually upheld. Therefore every voice, no matter how distorted, no matter how disguised, is His Voice.
Tonight the real John Nash, the person about whom the film, "A Beautiful Mind," was made, was interviewed on television. Interviewer Mike Wallace asked him, "Did you 'reason' your way out of your delusions?"
Nash looked thoughtful for a moment, then answered, "I became disillusioned with the delusions."
Again it all came crashing in ....
The "delusions" are there so that we can see that they are exceedingly delusions, and the spellbinder who wove the web of those delusions, those ghosts that haunt the dark places, has been found to be only a trickster in his wickedness, and having no truth in Him. All he has spoken of us in his accusations before the Almighty comes to naught, in the Light of the Majesty of grace.
Let the demons rage, let them walk in the periphery of our eyesight, if they wish, to taunt us and rage about how they're gonna do us in, how we belong to them, how there is no Solid Rock on which we stand.
But as Nash said, "[We've] grown disillusioned with the delusions" The delusion is that there is a secret conspiracy that I have to fight against, and that the Communists are after me everywhere I go, and I'm on a secret mission for the government. There is no conspiracy against me. There is nothing for me to fight against.
Nash found his salvation in love. Love through his wife brought him through and sustained him moment by moment, even though he was still suffering from his delusions. His wife's willing-to-die love drew him out, into the world of the real, and showed him what was real and what wasn't. A fierce battle ensued, between the real and the unreal, because the unreal WOULD NOT GO OUT OF HIS SIGHT. He could see it and hear it; therefore how could he deny it?
Isn't it "real" if you can "see" it and "hear" it? (Or is it?)
But love won the day, and continues to win every day, even though the delusions continue.
I don't know about anybody else, but this is a pretty good parable of my life, down to the part about the delusions continuing.
One day, or maybe over a period of time so that it went unnoticed, but at some point the delusions and the voices & all the contrariness and even all the wickedness and evil shifted in my inner consciousness into the One Person Manifesting Himself in His perfection.
There is no explanation for that. Theology breaks down here, because it can't cover this. It wants to make sure we don't fall headlong into pantheism, or quietism, or some other "ism" that is disapproved. There is pressure on this writer to want to stop and explain himself, to one more time go over how evil & rebellion fit into the picture, so that we can not associate God with evil, etc etc, but I've done that in the past & it bears no repetition now, because no matter how precise the answer nor even how meticulously correct it might be, crossing the gulf from a consciousness of separation into an inner awareness of union with Him is not a matter of being convinced of the right doctrines, nor of having all our i's dotted and t's crossed on the mystery of evil. It is the wisdom of God hidden in a mystery, and only revealed and walked in by the Spirit.
There is only one crossover.
"He that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him." (Heb 11:6)
To believe that "God IS" has for me increasingly meant just what I've said above -- it's ALL Him. To believe that He "IS" is to see Him, everywhere, in everything, in every sound, in every picture, in every feeling, in every sensation, in every color, in every conversation, in every piece of mail, in every driver on the freeway in front of me, HE IS.
Diligently seeking Him, therefore, is to unmask one by one every character in the play and realize they were all working from the same script, that there is no end to Him, no matter how far you unravel the thread, no matter how distant you travel to unheard of galaxies, whereever you go, whatever you see, inwardly, outwardly, up or down, is only the Living God upholding & sustaining all things by His Love.
9 They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain: for the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea.
10 And in that day there shall be a root of Jesse, which shall stand for an ensign of the people; to it shall the Gentiles seek: and his rest shall be glorious.
For me the lesson of John Nash underscores what we have been saying. This pull into the chaos of the world continues in this life, but in the settling in of the Spirit life in us, as the Spirit teaches us Himself, we likewise become "disillusioned with the delusions" and find that secret country, where "they shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain."
Living in God's holy mountain is to be in the fire and smoke and lightning with God. There are cosmic storms swirling around the center of the Godhead. All realities find their source and being in Him regardless of their wilful wandering from Him and since in Him all things consist, then the chaotic violence of the world swirls and roils in some part of the being of God, and living in God (as Moses did) in His mountain where there is nothing which will hurt or destroy, nonetheless we ourselves, as forms of His, also swirl and roil with all creation as it orbits the center of the Godhead. Yet in the center is the eye of the hurricane or the Peace of God. Our earth (ourselves) is full of the knowledge of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea. As the waters cover the sea. The root of Jesse, Christ Jesus the Lord, is our ensign, and His rest is glorious.
In the mountain of God all the voices only do one thing -- they sing the stories of God -- which stories we are ....
3 For there they that carried us away captive required of us a song; and they that wasted us required of us mirth, saying, Sing us one of the songs of Zion.
4 How shall we sing the Lord's song in a strange land?
Yet the song wells up, doesn't it? It comes up of itself, because that Song has become ourselves, the Song of God, and we come to realize that the strange land He sent us to in our captivity, and those who wasted us and mocked us, taunting us for our misplaced faith, as well as our disorientation in this strange land, has been naught else but He all along, that we ourselves are the Song He has been singing, and now even in this strange land, we can sing the Lord's song because we dwell in the midst of the Holy Mountain, where "they shall not hurt or destroy."
This is the fundamental "truth" out of which all the others flow -- there is Only ONE PERSON, and everything is a manifestation of Him in some form of love.
Now how can we not sing the Lord's song? ....
Praise God from whom all blessings flow,
Praise Him all creatures here below,
Praise Him above ye heavenly host,
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost ....
Ah -- ah -- men ....