Question: Since coming to know Gal 2:20 my life appears to be falling apart. I know He has given me the desires of my heart and He and I have talked this all over! But what I am experiencing feels like I have been abandoned even though I know it is not true. My health, finances, family relationships are all suffering great losses.
Am I alone in this? Or do you know of other real human beings who have been through things like this and like Job have come out the other side? I would sincerely appreciate it if you have any feedback for me . . .
From: john fautley
Subject: Information Please
It sounds to me that you are right on course. Yes, everybody that I know or know of, who have actually taken God at His word, and called Gal 2:20 a reality, have been through exactly what you describe, and what has been going on with you on the appearance level. It does seem strange, and even a little unfair, that God would treat us so, but I believe it is because what we are 'by faith, taking here', is huge, and we have to be cemented in it, so that we can stand firm when ever the wind blows. The only way (it would seem), to practise our belief in 'The Truth', of who we Really are, is for God to send the opposites on the appearance level, which we can look at in two ways. The first way would be to agree with the appearances, and start weakening in faith and start thinking horrible thoughts like we have got it wrong, or we are being punished for daring to say such things, or even worse that it is all nonsense and we are walking a 'false' path. The second would be to embrace all of the appearances and go along with Job and tell God, "even if you slay me, yet will I still trust You". This is the kind of fighting talk He loves.
A few days ago, I had some thoughts about Jesus' words when He said, "deny self, pick up your cross and follow me". As these thoughts tumbled around in my head I decided to jot them down, as they were kind of coming to me, so I did. Please see the attachment, I hope they are a help to you.
It is always good to hear from you, and please feel free to write when ever you you wish. But please know my dear friend YOU are right on schedule.